Hi reddit. I don’t post a lot but I just really need to vent.
I recently got accepted into NYU’s engineering program!! Woot woot!!
Yeah I was excited as fuck. Literally jumping up and down. However that quickly came to an end.
Over the past few weeks, I’ve been trying to figure out how I’m going to pay for school. As you probably know, NYU isn’t the cheapest school out there. And I am looking at a $28000 semester. I’ve applied for federal loans and was able to get a little under $6k in loans. But for the remaining balance I would need a parent plus loan. The problem with this, my mom won’t do it. I’ve tried applying for private loans and they’ve been approved but require a cosigner. My grandmother has tried to co-sign with me but these have been denied since she does not work (my grandfather gives her money each month) and my grandfather will not co-sign because of a previous experience long ago. And my father is out of the question due to being in jail (he’s been in since my HS graduation in 2017, but in and out since my birth). My mom is remarried and very rarely communicates with me, I was actually blocked until earlier today when I started freaking out and had to text my step dad to get her to unblock me because I really need to talk to her. Idk what I’m supposed to do. I tried so hard during HS. Graduated with honors in the top 10%, was class president my junior and senior year, and was an high achieving athlete all four years. I went to school in Arkansas for my freshman and sophomore year but just recently moved to New York last May. I interned with a prominent company here during the entire summer all the way until Nov. (the reason i wasn’t in school Fall 19). I’ll admit, I look great on paper. And that’s not just coincidence, I worked for that shit. And now, it’s like it was all for nothing. My family does not have the money to support me throughout school, and I don’t know if I can continue. I feel like a burden, and a waste of intelligence. Idk what to do, and this really fucking sucks.
And the part that makes it even worse?? I’m already enrolled in classes. I went to the first day of orientation today, and God I loved it. The programs that the school offers are amazing. The MakerSpace, the design lab, was breathtaking. I even sat down with the president of NYU’s Rocket Design team and talked about how I could get involved and ways to receive credit for my participation. It was like a wet dream. I was meeting people from all over the globe, making friends, connecting with staff. But now it all feels pointless. And tomorrow is the second day of orientation and classes start on Monday but I don’t even know if I should go. Why should I show my face when I’m just going to be missing after financial aid revokes my enrollment when I can’t pay.
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